I’m doubtful anyone is still out there, and it seems a little strange to write this when I haven’t been around all month, but for my own reasons, I wanted to note that this quaint little blog joint turned a year old towards the end of last month. And sentimental old fool that I am, I have to note that it’s been quite the year for me, and that this blog thing – and related internet enterprises – have turned out to have been really good for me.
I started this place in a state of chaos. I started it, in some ways, because I was running away from other spaces, virtually and metaphorically. And in that way that people who don’t live in this sphere can never quite understand, it’s been a huge part of me pulling myself back together. I’ve had space where I can think concepts through and connect them to emotions and have that be okay with the nebulous community I was doing it in and then be able to actually think those emotions through. I’ve found this little environment in which I can challenge my own thoughts and be challenged by brilliant people and come to a lot more solid understanding of where I stand on a lot of issues. When I started this blog, I was pretty wishy-washy on the not wanting to piss anyone off, not even really trusting my own opinions. Through the people I’ve encountered and befriended to some extent, I’ve learned a hell of a lot and come to a lot more courage on shit that I think needs to be said.
I’ve come to love this blogging thing, and I really should try to write a thing or two, even in my crazy state of busy, because it’s been therapy, it’s been social, it’s been education, it’s been energizing, it’s been catharsis. And on a much more shallow note, I think it’s really eased the transition back into essay-writing academic mode. Kept my brain mostly sharpened, it has.